May I never be one of these people. This week I was amazed at how much I learn when I am teaching the girls. We have this great devotional that we work out of each week. This particular day its topic was this...."loving people who are hard to love".....
In Matthew it says "love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be Sons of your Father in heaven." How hard is that. To teach your children you have to live it yourself. I have been definately challenged with that over time. Sometimes people can be rude, very rude. As long as we live here on earth, we will face countless opportunities to lose your temper when other people behave badly. God has a better plan: He wants us to forgive people and move on.
For some reason I struggle with moving on. I have this in built feeling of obligation and responsibility to fix everything. Maybe if I just do this or this, God I will help. I am slowly learning that I will make mistakes, lots of them, but I cannot stay in the same place. I have to forgive myself and if another person can't forgive me, then dust off my feet and move on, it is not my problem. We can only control our own actions/decisions not someone elses. Wow what a hard lesson to learn as, as women we are built for relationship. I do not like loss of relationship. I am learning that not everyone will like me, appreciate me or have time for me and that's ok.
It is up to me to choose who & how I spend my time. I have three sets of little eyes watching me and how I do it. Sometimes I don't want to be the bigger person and apologise, (I was being honest in love), but you know what, as sometimes being the bigger person doesn't give you any satisfaction , there is satisfaction in knowing that my heart is right before God and I have done everything I can to set things right.
Just some thoughts on that. Have an awesome day.
Love Me xxx
PS did I tell you we LOVE homeschooling. Yes some days it is hard and I miss shopping & doing lunch & having time to myself, but the positives way outweigh the negatives!!!!!